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Thursday, January 26, 2006

well.i just had an very enriching talk with pt just now.(:i think she prefers to refer to it as really
boring.but yes.i do know that i really think too much sometimes.
"why is it that some people are so pretty ,smart and everything and some others are so like,fat
short and stupid and stuff?so unfair"-me
"no.if youre pretty,you'll most prob be stupid.my sis says that god is fair.if youre ugly,you would
have other talents."-pt
"then i should be the most talented person on earth?but i havent found my talent yet!"-me
"YET.that means you'll find it."-pt.
yes,pt.i'll believe that i'll find something that i enjoy and am good at(: thanks for believing that
im not stupid like everyone else thinks.
oh a psychological test!from pt.
out of the words choose te one that appeals to you most.
something something nan shuo.
i chose shuo.and that meant that i have either 1,2 or even alot of people liking me now(?!)
and they would do anything i tell them to do.
how absurd.if only there is a person who would do anything for me ): its okay.if nobody is
willing to do anything for me,i'll do anything for myself.!see.notice my new positive outlook?and
since i cant ever be close to pretty,i'll learn to radiate beauty from inside.i know i still have a
long long long way to go but if someone just bekieves in me,i know i'll have the courage to
strive towards a better self.i will believe in myself.
sometimes i wonder,whats the point of liking someone when you dont tell them?how
meaningless.the feelings will fade one day if you dont express them and everything
will go back to normal.like nothing ever happened.oh well,easy to say.if i ever liked
anyone,i dont htink i'll have the courage to say it anyway.i dont know.mommy says
that im insecure.well,i used to deny it.but i guess i pretty much accept it now.well.
i know i'll never be one of the best.but i'll try.i wont give up.this i promise.
oh.its such an emo post,im feeling emo.ahh well.

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:28 AM
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